What I think about and ultimately what I write about comes directly from God. I get this unction that I just can’t ignore. Sometimes, God wakes me up in the middle of the night and I just can’t stop thinking about something and I have learned over the years that I just have to get up and write down what God is saying or sometimes there is something that I have to do. It was one of those moments when God told me to start a blog. I have always wanted to write, in particular a book, but I had never thought about this. As it turned out, I put this blog together in a couple of days. God just carried it along.and I wrote my first couple of posts and everyday God had something new that I thought He wanted me to say. I figured that’s what was going to happen and God would provide daily and I was OK with that.

The last couple of days I haven’t had anything that I felt compelled to share.. I wanted to write, but I wasn’t getting anything from God. Today is Sunday and I went to church and today’s lesson was on the fruit of the spirit, Galatians 5. As I sat there, God was talking to me. The real message today was about abiding. Abiding is an interesting concept and I think the applicable translation for abiding for us is where you live. What I felt God convicting me about today was where was I living the last couple of days. Was I totally depending on Him? Was I living every moment for Him or was I living somewhere else? In retrospect, I think that I was living somewhere else.

In perspective, had anything majorly changed in my life the last couple of days? No, not really. I haven’t committed any great sin that has caused me separation from God, but, there was a subtle difference. I don’t even know if I can describe what I am thinking about, but my life has been different the last couple of days. It’s hard to quantify. How do you gauge the difference between 100% sold out for God and having other thoughts in the way? It’s hard, but I think we have to. It’s the key to abiding in Him.

I think that when God has our undivided attention, then we bear fruit. When God doesn’t have our undivided attention, He spends all His time in relationship with us trying to get it so that we can bear fruit.  He doesn’t call us to be perfect because we can’t be, He doesn’t call us to not sin because that is not possible, but He does call us to loyalty and that is a mindset and a lifestyle. I know the last couple of days I had lost my focus and I will probably do that again, but my goal is to everyday abide in Him. I will know if I am abiding if there is any fruit.